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good morning everyone....

good morning hongkong!!!

owws...

pangarap na kay tagal at natupad.

may ticket na!!!

naging bato pa naman!?!

ewan....

grattie as in gracias... grace who was very accomodating and understanding during our night stay at her joint; i sang and sing at the top of my lungs hey hey hey hey and how i looooove to sing with her plasma so wide and thin tsk tsk. soon we're gonna buy it too. whahahaha - at isipin nyo nalang jinx & prime are on the far edge of carlo's back- quite lovely people - have you seen the coke? coca cola mao ra na amo inum apan nahubog mi tanan...whahahahaha daghan man gud pulutan niluto ni ailene..

people... people who needs people... are the luckiest people in the world... people... we need to conform with the society and live like other people, who abides the laws of the land and the law that we created with faith above... we need to share with other people inorder for us to have job, to transact and buy what we want, to love and feel love but yes a lot of time often we are hurt with people but it will only stay a bit and its your choice if you ponder on the odd and the bad - so always choose to be good and be happy with people, among people and conform with other people and recognize, appreciate their flaws and individual differences... but look at us! are these you call people???

they are in their 20's and i'm past my 35th but look!!! if not of the bulges around mine ahmm i still look my 25th huh!!! please please please no objection this time...well then take your pick... they are all available and negotiable whahahahaha joke...

Not forgetting also the cool admin personnel! who makes me comfortable in anyways and surround me with warmth and smile.

i never thought i'll be comfortable with these ladies... am not sure too if they are comfortable with me. sometimes you think that "we are so comfortable with each other" notion but are really not. what does it really feel and what does it really mean when we say "i'm comfortable with you?" by the way what does webster says about comfortability? acccording to merriam: affording and enjoying contentment and security; free from vexation and doubt; it applies to anything that encourage serenity, well being or complacency as well as physical ease; it also suggests warmth, shelter and friendliness- so i guess we really do found each other! any motion for disagreement? any objection? none! the motion /notion is carried.

My niece aynsley. who loves to laugh and posse. and also prefers fish than other meat. she loves to mimic the tv and dances so gleefully.

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My precious aliana margaret. the strawberry fairy with her pet dog "noname" and loves to eat fish especially "tinola". the shy yet playful and smart niece of mine.

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One of my first job experienced was when I was employed into i called a "firm" patterened from John Grisham. Six brilliant individuals with six or more complex yet pleasant attitude that by and then molded me into a well learned, unique and broad minded individual - i refer them as my mentor in law; i called them "campanela de abogacia" :

They taught me to read and read more-that even today whenever i saw a piece of newspaper wrapped to a dilis i still has to read it - but then again eversince i remember way back when i was still a kid i already read (owws not read but just scan or stare or look for pictures) books at home and even goes out of the way to borrow komiks from neighbors worth 25cents. When mama brought me along to negros and visit my aunts i envy them seeing piles and piles of readers digest - that i promise myself if time and money allow i have to subscribe for once a dream turn into reality.

They scolded and console me with care that i was able to learn the things and despise of the world. I was able to comprehend minute details to large errors and evaluate them inorder to conform with the society and other individual rich and poor alike. I was able to overcome inferiority amongst other high personality and was able to come talk face to face ignoring what you wear and where you stand. It was also molded well when i joined the Junior Chamber who trained us leaders in our own way and become independent and survive the dictates of everyday life.

The "firm" was gone but each individual has its own profile built by stardom and financial business connection.

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I often wear this black berry bracelets of mine whenever i wore black courtesy of a person who i missed bringing us sweet tamarind from thailand! that because of prime vanished so suddenly from my eye that i haven't bid him goodbye and because of his goodness shown while i was a stranger once around i wear this bracelet and chuckle a little remembering the goodtimes swimming at the pool, a tap of my back and a gentle kiss on my cheek when my birthday comes.

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papa used to rear derby roosters but mama hated it and exclaimed that roosters are more far better because early dawn papa woke up and fed them and showered them with bits of fresh veggies he cut a night before - i know mama was just jealous with the chicken! it was already months near his death that year and mama would wish his time spent with the chicken will be devoured with her loving arms especially at dawn rather than the cockadle derby kings! you know what mama did? she just threw all the large chicken to the bridge! yah right down the sea it crawl for survival papa just laugh-with tears in his eyes letting go of his treasured chicken for he knew that sooner he will be joining Almighty! today one of my chicks lie cold and stiff- i woke up at 5:30 and haven't slept again(i use to wake up at 6:45) seeing one of the two chick left - dead! yesterday papart threw the other chick who was also dead -they are set of three. i was hurt...no... i felt lonely... and remember papas roosters and also reminish the older chick that was also dead after heavy rain pours at our back - he flew for shelter but couldn't make it to swim to the other pit and there floating dead! i fear for the other one left now- he seems so lonely and light that his two wings are just like heavy armors in his side and his left eye was bruised - i don't know what happen to them all maybe some neighbors just hated chicken so much! last night papart gave them medicine for their flu and i thought the other one dead this morning was choked with the tablet-he did not powder it before feeding! i told him so... so i carried this heavy heart today also... maybe because we bought so much feeds already for them and they may taste yummy by october but then they are also joining Almighty! what can i do?...

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then there were four turkeys they used to be five, one dead after a very rainy night. papart said we have to kill one today so that ailene and amiecar can eat and taste turkey for dinner but everytime our pets are lining for the "katayan blues" my heart weeps a little... but turkey is more sweeter that other barbecued fowl i tasted. hmmm its Asa's birthday today we might as well kill one but battle continue as to what and which turkey among the four to be fried??? ahh let them just play around for a while... i will buy fish for dinner tonight at least the fishes in the market are cold dead and all i have to do is point for kilo. hey stop! cold dead fish? they say it's fresh!? how could that be? how can we eat cold dead fish? and they say it's fresh? i thought fresh are alive!? another wrong notion huh!

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I longed for the fresh air abound but you have to travel yet to get there and breathe them.. at dapitan it's always fresh air, no air pollution (because townfolks only ride bicycle) jooooookkkeeeee!

I also longed for the sun to see it set. If only the east is the west and i could stay late at the BAC office or at the warehouse and watch it set at mactan horizon. in dapitan every community sees the sun rise and sets.

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with my new envi - all i do on weekends is just chill at the sofa and watch credits of movies. way back when i feel slumber i goes out of the house and joins barangay folks and sit along the road pavement and talked about politics and life and joys and new discovery - or texted batch 89 and play dart over a bottle of grande or just talk of office adventures and activities - or just stays at home with my sister and talked, talked, talked until wee dawn ---but here there's no one to run to, to talk to or share to - because if you decide to go out, you have to take a bath, you must comb your hair and spent for travel / bus expense; in dapitan you just walk, walk from your house to the market-to the beach- to church- to the office- to the hospital (except on emergency cases - you have to ride a tricycle or else - you guess... just like when mama had a stroke-my sister shout for help everyone came but there is no available vehicle what was there was a tri-sikad and they let mama in and though the thought was so shocking - but when we talk of it now? we end up laughing why? because nobody papartany without minding to comb my hair.

MEMORIES

he was 27 and she was 21. they were neighbors in the city. he studied college and she went to school and at the same time worked as a nursing aide. she was shapely white and he was shiny dark. they fell in love and went to the province(my homtown) and got married on the 1st day of March when there is still no electricity and the road are still dusty . their love was intense and pure and was blessed by four kids - very wonderful kids - but has two miscarriages, first was when she was 21 - the baby boy was already nine month and is supposed to be given birth unfortunately it was a breach birth and led to a sad tiny tomb. the second was befor the fourth when he already had limited time according to the lung center personnel and now it lies cold in a bottle. their love story crawled with so much love and happiness and sweet memories that when he was 44 he bade adieu to rice literally and to life practically, that left her struggle with four kids. then the journey of begging and lending and working extra hard begun. she was not used to hard work becuase while he was still alive he provided for everything- everythimg - food, shelter, clothing (even he washes the clothes) cooked the meals, clean the house and just asks for rice subsidy from his parents and managed coconut, milkfish and cow farm and the enivetable

I would like to extend my deepest appreciation to the people who still believe in my capacity and capability that i - still can work harmoniously and magically in the field i'm in now..

I'd like to believe that you all trusted me and so i put my trust in you.

With this new endevour offered, once again i have to stage my efficiency and will deliver the services that i am entrusted to.

i promise the good things and do the appropriate and uphold the conduct of a true value worthy of expectation from those who put me through this challenge..

Honestly, i started to accept that i will be going home because of a call from a "friend" that the reckoning day will be earlier-Acceptance i have that when another week after i received another call - this time from a "boss" so there is Promise - still i continue to pray after our nine day novena and piously asks for another chance - then came Judgement Day. it was my great grand lolo's birthday and i received a gift-a KIT that's all that matters now...

This time no more calls...

All i have now is WORK

and work and work

and work

WORK

then i can feed mouths, then i can buy the thing and food i'd looooove to eat and help my kin "$more$" and pay debts... notices are filing up now-and pay the bills and this time it will be different- SAVE MORE and SPEND LESS...though i already value my work eversince i started working in 1993 yet i thought my efforts are still not enough because liabilities are skyrocketing and my assets are just sooooooooooooooooo far down... maybe i need to renew my lifestyle but, no i'm already broke ever since... uhmmmm i need to WORK hard again and again... someday i will land a job that is maybe that comes with in a package of three or four like a salary, a house (to own) a car and rice allowances hmm what you think? ahhh they say nothing is